The intensity of this year has put most of us into a strange configuration of transition, vacillation, and disorientation. It is as if we start down one path, notice the ground shift beneath us, confront doubt about our choices, take a moment to reset, and start on our way again, perhaps reluctantly. It's a harrowing reflection of the world too--our realities seem anything but, if we are too attached to their familiarity.
As those of us on the waking path continue to let go of our expectations, detach from our hardened beliefs of what we know, and, at times, release our assumptions about reality itself, we are reminded to trust ourselves.
We are called to trust on two levels: trust our Knowing and our resilience to weather our way equipped with it, and trust our wider connection to whichever forces are influencing our evolution and dictate the logic of our collective psyche.
This isn't a trust yourself cliche on a t-shirt--this is the Big Trust that'll press hard on your anxiety, stretch your patience, and give you whiplash. You may, for a moment, want to go back in time for that blue pill. It is the type of Trust that transforms us for our next learning stage.
On the first tip, our internal connection to all things is what I describe as Knowing. It is the compass that governs our deep intuition and recalls memory from way back, way forward, all sides of ourselves, and all to which we are connected. Recently, the guidance that I've interpreted for folks on behalf of the Ancestors has been some version of "you already know." (And when they're on the sassier side, "we've been told you.")
I was read the same guidance myself when I talked to my intuitive-friends. As their words were channeled, I slowly recognized, to my mild amusement, that my helping spirits had already told me everything. One thing after the other! I just needed a reflection to see how the pieces fit within the composite. In fact, my People told me that I was being too practical around my Knowing. Fair enough. Resistance to our Knowing comes in many forms. Whatever yours is, let it down, and when you think you have released, let go more still. If the same things have been reflected back to you; if you've seen the same signs; if the same ideas come to mind; if you've gotten the same advice--it's time to just trust yourself.
I'm often asked about the nature of Trust. I suppose it's a burden of my last name ;) What I can say is if you have been conditioned not to trust yourself, or trauma has separated you from your trust, or you are recovering from a leap of trust that was a rough ride, it is OK to doubt. Doubt can be your companion if you put it to service. I say let Doubt be in contrast to your Knowing, and when you must, choose. Choosing to Trust does not mean that it'll be easy, however, it will mean that you will receive more support, universally speaking, than if you resist. That's been true in my experience.
It's also true for me, and from what I've witnessed, to trust in our resilience. We are made for this life--we simply need to believe in as much. Many of us have survived hard times already and have survival encased in our very DNA. I'm reminded that the courage that we are is toward our evolution so that we don't need to merely survive anymore. We are and can experience life differently, in a way that doesn't feel like constant struggle. Granted, we are often called to work for it. However, it is worth our work.
The second level of trust that is crucial is our wider Trust in the forces that shape our realities. They are often hard to follow and understand in the ways that we know. Divine, she has her own plans. We are offered small windows at any moment that we try not to miss. This is why our keen presence--from moment-to-moment--is required.
Nonetheless, whichever connections inspire you to claim a wider Trust, please do not take them for granted, particularly now. Draw them closer. Whether it is (living) people, animals, art, nature, philosophy, or whatever else--notice them, love them, hold them with care. They are are our sources of being. And the more that we affirm them, the more that we affirm ourselves, and the utter everyday Mystery that we occupy.
And besides, it's usually easier to claim a wider Trust than to be all but forced to. We know those moments when we didn't claim it until things got harsh. The side of ease is the side of Trust.
Wishing y'all immense support as we let go & become! Happy spring!